He Must Have Bumped His Head

What the hell is going on with the weekends?  every time my Marine gets liberty for a weekend he "forgets" about me.  I'm not talking about going out and partying, he just goes to his family for the weekend but something happens that he just not give me attention.  Let me explain: its a weekend, shouldn't we be skyping, texting or whatever?! well no.

Last friday, we were on a call but then he had to go for formation, it was already late for me so I sent him a text saying I was going to bed.  The next day (since I went to bed I saw his text the next day) I see a text from him saying he was done with school and that he was ready to go to his mom's.  After that, no text telling me he got there or that he went to bed (he normally sends me a text telling me when he is going to bed).  Ok, Friday goes by, we are now on my Saturday.  I receive a message by 1540 my time with a good morning. I already was mad, but I tried not to show it off.  Then, nothing from him until 2040.  And another one by 0115.  Sunday, a good morning message by 1846.  Then, next text by 2301 telling me he misses me!  What the hell?!  really? that is how he misses me?

Then I told him what I thought.  I think that when I'm the only one around I'm his priority, but once he is around more people he cares about, he forgets about me.  I mean, he texts, its true, but I feel a disconnection, and why doesn't he call? its a weekend when we are supposed to talk the most.  He said he did not do it intentionally and that he was going to do an effort; that during the weekends he just wants to decompress.  And being the woman I am, I immediately thought: decompress also from me?  I thought it, but did not say anything to him about it.  Then I told him I did not want him to do any effort, that it was not supposed to be an effort.  Then, he said I just said he wasn't giving me what I wanted and that that required and effort to be changed.

Nothing, at the end we ended up with tons of I love yous, and I had to let him go do some homework.  But this is not first time I tell him about forgetting me when he is with his family.  I'll try to be more patient with him, also, since it seems to be a pattern I will not be waiting for him to write me when he is at his family's and that way I wont feel mad.

It may be better when we live together, I guess.

What do you think?

It Would be Easier if They Told Us

My Marine sometimes thinks I know stuff or I was born knowing.  Well, I have news for you pal, we do not.  All his years in the Marines have turned him into thinking that everybody is like him or lives in his same circumstances.  I once read a "don't tread your Marine as a civilian" (I may have changed that a bit).  Well, nothing more true than that.  My days of getting mad for not getting a call when he said he was going to, or not knowing from him in days are gone...who? me? I would not tolerate that! yes, that was the old me.

Im just saying WE NEED TRAINING TOO.  The same way they go on bootcamp we should go to, haha at last a: DON'T LOOSE YOUR MIND CAMP.  There are a lot of things I've learned on a web, by reading from other girls, things that I then ask him and he clarifies but I think to myself: gee, you could of told me that and save me tons of angriness, despair and concern.  For example, while he was deployed I asked him: is it true that while on deployment you could go on a mission for weeks and that  you could be uncommunicated? he looked to the skies and said: yes baby.  What in the heavens?! that would be good to know you know? if your man is on deployment you would certainly want to know THAT was a possibility.

Now every time something is going to happen: he is taking a leave, he is driving to a new school, whatever, I tell him: baby, give me training.  Meaning: give me some of your minutes and walk me through this, tell me what is going to happen, for how long I could not hear from you, can I write or call...that kind of stuff.

And even though, I always feel unprepared :(